how does one mend the broken heart.

do you eat a hearty full meal to pump it back to life?  or do you drink gallons of water to submerge it?  how about a new hairdo?  or shopping therapy to temporarily forget the pain prickling inside.  how about crying the eyes out.  or to the big sea to shout it out.  perhaps going on a vacation alone.  would it be a romantic city, beach resort, or nature reserves? 

everytime i see wedding videos especially at wedding dinners, i would find myself drawn into the scene and most of the time there are tears welding up the corners of my eyes.  am i sentimental?  am i an emotional person?  does that make me a lovely person to love? 

the piano, it’s one of the most lovely instrument that plays such heart wrenching music at times.  i like to let the emotions flow when i’m playing my favourite piece.  i love listening to piano music.  my passion for it will never die.  my passion for anything that i love will never fade away easily.  the piano music was part of the confession.  it ties to so much wonderful unforgettable memories.

every corner in the globe, traces of footsteps, echoes of sound, every laughter, every moments… how does one make the memories disappear like they never exist.

how could one say let go and its gone.  is it easy to forget.  is it easy to pretend they do not exist.  where does one go from here.

how does one mend the broken heart.. again

the three words, are still carved to my heart and it’s bleeding.  now that i finally fathorm the meaning of ‘bleeding love’.. 

the three words, which i will never forget how it was spoken..

the three words, which was once beautiful..

my tears, have been flowing like river.  flowing to the great pacific ocean, to the indian ocean.  my heart aches and bleeds profusely.  it is so much pain to bear. 

no.  it will never go away… 

first of all, i hope to get myself a car.  i gave myself a deadline, and december it shall be.  besides, it could be a nice birthday present for myself too if i do take that long to fulfill (*fingers crossed).  being ever so excited about this dream, i started ‘running’ a checklist in my head of the names of car i would like to own.  some of the brands include toyota, honda, subaru, and volkswagon (which came to my mind this morning).  just like the mini, a volkswagon is somethin’ i would like to own someday.  well not quite a car fanatic, but just love the thought of spinning around in this cool machine.  to be more pratical, a japanese car would be most ideal.  that zooms down to a toyota or honda.  given that i’ve driven in a toyota before, i would love to consider a honda for my next car.  as for the model, i have very keen interest in the ‘honda rush’. however, i was advised by my brother that it’s both expensive and not worth the space.  the car boot space is limited and rear passenger seat is too cramped up.  he suggested going for somethin’ which has ample boot space and seats with roomy leg room.  that boils down to a sedan and my face goes :s…  i have never imagined myself driving or owning a sedan.  i really would love to own a honda rush or toyota rav 4 or somthin’ similar…  and never have i thought of drivin’ in an accord or corolla.  to side-track this thought, i start looking at subaru wrx – which ‘MIGHT’ seem ‘SpoRty’.. not sure..  i think it’s a little too ’sleazy’ for me.  well for now, i’m just gonna keep in view for another 2 months or so..

next, i wanna attend a proper photography course.  with my dSLR, i think i should fully utilise the potentials of my black beauty, so that i can take more wonderful pictures and to be able to capture that special moment beautifully…  i’m amazed that some of the schools actually organise photo trips to other countries like brunei..  that is so interesting.  well i hope i’ll be able to roll in this plan in the next couple of months too.

third, i wanna fulfill the dream of gettin’ a place of my own and deadline i set would be — 2011 next year.  looking at so many advertisements of new properties lauchin’, i am amazed at those prices and how highly priced even for each of them.  though a new property would be awesome but a resale property might seem more practical.. that would set my goals for abit and mentally prepared to stinge and save for a long time…

oh by the way, there is one little cool gadget i was thinkin’ of investing though.. 

and i’ll like to own a camcorder

below are some pics of food we had together which brings back so much fond memories…

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hotate (twentieth may o nine)

sashimi (twentieth may o nine)

in tokyo…

mushrooms! (nineth may o nine)

japanese steamboat (tenth may o nine)

blueberry cake (eleventh may o nine)

 

tempura (thirteenth may o nine) dessert

 

lemon cheesecake

whenever we have a meal together, i love to take pictures of what we eat and most delightful when it comes to desserts!  i must say that my foodie collection is gettin’ quite out of hand and the pictures are all over the places..  (time to do some ‘spring-cleanin’…)

let’s see if i can recall when and where were these pictures taken!

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♥ Gunthers (french restaurant) on thirteenth august o eight 

cheese platter

♥ tien po po (japanese restaurant) on eleventh november o eight 

sashimi platter

♥ waraku (japanese restaurant) on thirtieth december o eight 

japanese egg salad

♥ (inside stallion) on thirty first december o eight 

yummeh blueberry cheesecake

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now i regret not taking more pix in twenty o eight…

but stay tuned, cos there are a lot more in twenty o nine and twenty ten coming up..

(to be contd…)

know what i like about the design?  the trophy and the chinese word ‘優’ caught my eye.  ‘優’ is also pronounced as ‘you’ which means ’excellence’ or ‘distinction’ or simply – GOOD!